Diary of a Working Mom
I live in a new reality.
About a year ago, with very eager anticipation, I started contemplating this “going back to work” thing. I eventually took the leap and thoroughly enjoyed the Working Mom honeymoon for a good long time. Several months, in fact. But as these things go, the newness and excitement of this change in our lives wore off and the real work began. My plate was overflowing with responsibilities. Everything was off balance because time was no longer in surplus. Every minute of the day was dedicated to one of only three things: my children, my job or sleep. My dad started answering the phone with, “Um, I’m sorry who’s this calling? Kim? Kim who?” Ha ha ha, real funny, Dad. The water was rising and I was nearly drowning.
But here I am a little further down the road.
I have an awesome job that I love, and that I appreciate. I wear so many hats at work that challenge me, fulfill me and push me. I am the Jill of All Trades, but happily so. The paycheck is nice (and necessary). The opportunity to do good work is also nice…and necessary as it turns out. I admit, it’s taken some time for me to fit into my Working Mom shoes. Going from a stay at home momma to a full-time working momma is like moving to another country. Put simply, it’s a whole other way of living. What I can say now though, is that it suits me well. The work I do has always been an important part of my identity and I feel a lot more like myself doing something I love.
I have two amazing children that I adore. My every move revolves around them day after day after day. A friend once told me that my children will ignite a sense of joy I’d never felt before. She was absolutely right. It has been such a rollercoaster ride trying to find the right balance for them though. The Summer was rough, I’m not gonna lie. Some days I just put one foot in front of the other; other days I feel like maybe I’m doing an alright job. Working Mom or Not, parenting is by far the toughest job I’ve ever had and I’ve accepted that it’s a constant work in progress with many peaks and valleys.
I have a better relationship with my husband. This new, crazy life has caused…um, forced us…to up our game. Marriage with kids is no cake walk. Marriage with kids and two full time jobs is insanity. With so many moving parts, there simply is no choice but to communicate openly and frequently. We both have had to give more and do more. Relationships need a few basic elements to keep them alive – time, effort, understanding and patience. It sure ain’t easy sometimes, but at least we still agree it’s worth it.
I have a bunch more work to do to regain true balance in my life. For example, reconnecting with the outside world is top on my list. The bulk of my time is really still divvied up into a small handful of things which leaves everything else sitting on the back burner. There just aren’t enough hours in a week. When my dad starts answering the phone like I’m not a long lost relative, that will be a sign of some progress! Until then, I’m just glad to be on the other side of this wild transition with fewer roadblocks and a clearer game plan for how to do this Working Girl gig.